My name is Tori, I’m 22, and I graduated nursing school in December of 2021. I’ve taken the NCLEX twice and have been unsuccessful. I thought nursing school would be my biggest hurdle on the journey of becoming a nurse, but I was wrong. Nursing school was full of many sleepless nights, crying, and a whole lot of studying, but nothing could have prepared me for the devastation I felt when I got my letter of failure in the mail. The day before the first day of class I took the predictor test, and I did well, the best I’ve ever tested for UWorld. Instead of feeling proud of myself, I was beyond frustrated. I’m at my wits end, I’ve done so much studying for months with no good outcomes. What more can I do? What more can Nick do? What am I missing? At the end of my first week, I found something I seemed to have lost after my two failed NCLEX attempts, motivation. I was so empowered to get to work after class each day, and it felt good, things are clicking. I have hope that all this work will be worth it.
Two weeks have gone by, and I am exhausted. This is the hardest I’ve ever worked for something. I’m consistently studying daily, but it’s rewarding. I won’t lie, I took a few days off and got behind, but I refused to stay behind. I didn’t come this far to only come this far. The interaction in class has been amazing, I can keep up with Nick, and I’m learning more every day. I felt so lost at the beginning of this class, but Nick has been pushing me to keep going. My testing scores on UWorld have been great, and Nick is so encouraging! I’ve been at a pretty low point, unable to pass and move forward as I watch my peers move past me from nursing school, it’s been discouraging. The first day of class, Nick looked us all in the eye and said, “You are all nurses. So, I want you to think like nurses, because you already are nurses.” That hit me hard, I haven’t felt like a nurse for a while, but he’s right. I’m regaining my confidence in myself, and it feels good.
By the end of week 3 I was a complete mess. I felt like I learned so much, but for some reason I started to get in my own head. Part of it was with the addition of knowledge, I’d overthink a question that was straight forward, and part of it was the anxiety of the class being halfway finished. I have been putting my all into it, and I want this so bad. The fear of the unknown and the anxiety set in. Have I done enough? Will this be enough? I started to spiral for sure and neglected myself. I had to take a step back and self-reflect, which was the best thing I could have done. After a lot of reflection, I was able to see that I am doing everything in my power to be successful on the NCLEX. I am so proud of the progress I’ve made. Nick sent out a few videos for motivation and I watched them on repeat. I came to this class to learn something, not to prove something. I’ve had to tell myself that quite a few times, but it’s been very helpful.
I feel like these weeks keep going by faster and faster! Where has the time gone? I started the week still slightly nervous and anxious, which is okay, there’s going to be some level of both. Mostly, I’ve started to feel confident again! Last week I was so stuck in my head; I was overthinking, going too fast, and second guessing all my answers. I finally got out of my funk and started to trust myself again. I know the information, and if I don’t, I can still figure out the answer. This test will not defeat me, I know I can do this. Nick has helped me to regain my confidence and expanded my knowledge. By the end of the week, I felt at peace with myself. At the end of the day, I have worked my butt of in this class. I’ve got two more weeks and I will bust this out!
I can’t believe I’m already at the end of week 5, I thought this course would feel like it takes forever, but it’s over in a blink of an eye. I finished week 5 feeling great for the most part. I’m continuing to have above average UWorld scores, and I’m learning and reinforcing Nick’s teachings on a daily basis. I did my predictor on Thursday (earlier than the rest of the class) and I was being really hard on my score. I was focusing on the score more than I should have, the bottom line is I got a very high chance of passing and that is great, but the most exciting development was that everything on the test I had seen before. There wasn’t one question I didn’t recognize the diagnosis or medication, and if I didn’t, I could still use context clues to get the answer. That is huge! I realize there will be questions I truly don’t know on the NCLEX, it’s a CAT test, but it truly feels amazing to see marked improvement in my knowledge and application. Sometimes I have to take a step back and look at the bigger picture, I’ve done really well, and I need to stop being so harsh on myself.
I started week 6 with both excitement and panic. I know at the end of this week I will take my NCLEX, but I also know I am the most prepared I have ever been to take this test. I am confident in my abilities, and I have accepted the fact that I know what I know, and I can rock this out. My scores in UWorld have been great, I’m feeling more and more calm as the week progresses towards my NCLEX. I started this class unsure of what else to do, I thought I had studied and didn’t understand why I hadn’t passed yet; boy were my eyes opened during this class. Areas that I lacked knowledge on were addressed, teachings were reinforced, test strategies were learned, and my confidence was built back up. I truly cannot express my gratitude to Nick regarding this class. He has been my biggest cheerleader, has pushed me harder than I’ve ever been pushed, and has picked me back up when I fell. Nick cares about all of us and you can see how badly he wants us to succeed, I can tell you one thing, I cannot wait to call Nick and tell him I’ve passed. I know this. I got this. I’m ready. NCLEX here I come.
Post pass the NCLEX – After Passing
I did it! I am now Tori, RN and it is the best and weirdest feeling! I keep checking the validation site and staring at the RN active status, I have a hard time believing it when I see it. I took my NCLEX and killed it! That test went from being the biggest hurdle of my nursing career to something so easy! While I took the test, I kept waiting for it to become hard, and it wasn’t. I recognized everything on there and I could not be prouder of myself!
I’d like to take a moment and thank my family and friends. I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to take this class without the help of my mom, thank you for always being my biggest supporter. Mayur you listened to my countless mental breakdowns and told me to keep going. Matt, you helped to keep me sane! I appreciate you more than you know. Savannah, you were in my shoes not that many months ago and knew exactly what I was going through. Thank you for always letting me vent and telling me to keep pushing through! Lastly Joellyn, you have always been there and been cheering for me throughout my entire journey, thank you. Those 6 weeks were the toughest, hardest, and most trying 6 weeks of my life. I worked my butt off, more than I ever have before, and it paid off. Nick, you are an amazing teacher, and I would not have these initials behind my name without you. Your teaching style, encouragement, and pushing me to be the best version of myself got here today. I cannot wait to start my career and hopefully work alongside you in the ER. Thank you so very much for everything!